World Suicide Prevention Day!

A few years ago I went through a bit of…. depression. It was a really rough time for me and I was too young to know how to help myself (I wasn’t even diagnosed until years later!). I never self-mutilated or even ever thought about killing myself. I just felt dead inside. I didn’t want to live or die.

When I got older I seeked help. Going away to college and talking to a therapist were vital to my recovery. Don’t be afraid to ask for help! If you are like I was, may I offer one piece of advice: Search for inspiration. Wherever you can. I found mine through these two books.

Staying Strong: 365 Days a Year – Demi Lovato
I bought this book and started a self-help project. Everyday I would make a YouTube video; saying the quote and goal and what it personally meant to me. I kept this up for 3 MONTHS. Which was huge for me at the time. I let myself completely out there. Didn’t care how I looked, if I got emotional. The book is full of inspirational quotes and goals!

East of Eden – John Steinbeck
I started this novel in April of 2014 after hearing news of Jennifer Lawrence to star in a two-part movie adaptation. I remembered an interview of hers saying it was her favorite book. SO I HAD TO READ IT. Going in, I didn’t know just how big of an impact it would have on who I was as a person. I felt like it was written just for me. Plus I was introduced to my favorite word: timshel. East of Eden will forever be my favorite book.

If any of you are ever in need of someone to talk/vent to, I’m always here for you. xo

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  1. Been there, in fact, I’m bipolar, so it’s something I live with. Take care of yourself, you and everyone else who faces depression. It can be helped. If one doctor doesn’t help you, go to another — go to a psychiatrist if you can. One word of caution, support groups can be a double-edged sword. Some help, some just make you feel worse. Get one that’s led by a professional.

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  2. I happen to be randomly creeping on you and you just posted like I think we might have BFF telepathy?!?!? but anyways I really love this and love you and you deserve all the happiness in the world, just so you know 💖💖💖


  3. My mom reads my blog, so I can’t post about this on there. I did self injure, and I did want to die (a lot). I’m just glad I’m so curious about things that I never actually went through with the death bit. I’ve been wanting to read “East of Eden” (along with a bajillion other books), and now I’m thinking it’s an even better idea. Thankfully, I’m not as bad as I was, but I definitely need to get help again because it’s getting out of control. Thank you for posting about this ❤ It's definitely something that needs to be shared and have awareness brought to it. Every suicide is preventable…

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    1. I’m really glad you never went through with it either 🙂 For me, East of Eden was a game changer. I vowed to read it at least once a year!! I’m happy if my post helped in any way! Thank you for sharing 🙂 Admitting to yourself that you want help is the most important step! Wishing you the best!! x

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  4. I’ve totally been there. Mental Health is so common people don’t generally realise. I suffer from Anxiety (mainly PTSD) and depression and it is so difficult for people to understand and deal with! I really want to raise awareness about it tbh. For my final year project i’m actually doing a Mental Health Documentary, which i’m so excited to fillm! You’re so brave Cassidy and you deserve all the happiness in the world! Also, I loved your Staying Strong Channel! xo

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    1. You are totally right!! I was surprised with how many people I was able to connect with on the internet over this! Most importantly, you!! We never would’ve met if I didn’t decided to do my Staying Strong vlog project 😀 I’m extremely excited for your documentary! Wishing you the BEST of luck with it all ♥ Keeping kickin major a** at uni & at life!x


  5. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on this. Easy to forget in the depths of depression that there are so many people who have been there and so many there to help and listen.


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