After discovering the line-up for WARPED TOUR, I uncovered a love for The Summer Set. More specifically, for their song Figure Me Out.
Ya know when you just connect with lyrics? As if it was fate for you to hear this song?
It gave you that feeling you couldn’t put into words.
So I’d much rather die tryin’ to make something sacred than live as another YouTube sensation
Cause I hate that they’re famous for being something they’re not
While I’m too hung up on the things I don’t have to appreciate what I’ve got
I haven’t made a YouTube video in over 2 months. I barely blog anymore.
And I can’t decide if it’s because I feel like it’s all fake?
It no longer feels like I’m doing it for me.
Years ago I started YouTube because making videos genuinely made me happy. I met so many amazing people from all around the world thanks to it and this blog.
But I’ve noticed many YouTubers care too much about how many subscribers or views they get. I know my goal isn’t to be a “YouTube sensation”… but I don’t know what it is.
Coming back to college for sophomore spring semester, I lost something. I lost the desire to connect. For having the number of followers I have, I oddly feel alone.
It’s time for me to figure out why I created kissmycassidy.
Why I make YouTube videos. Why I blog.
But I believe there’s more to life than all my problems maybe there’s still hope for me to start again
Get my feet back on the ground
Pull my head out of the clouds
I think it’s time for me to figure me out
It’s time for me to figure me out.
*****Has anyone else felt this way before?